A year has almost passed. We are down to the final days of what some may consider to be a pretty dramatic year. We've seen natural disasters, political scandals, the fall of legends and the rise of the future. I've watched people stand in line for video game systems, movies, sales, and basketball tickets. We seem to keep our ears glued to the radio, our eyes glued to the television, and our fingers glued to the keyboard, waiting for the next breaking news. What exciting event is going to happen today.
Meanwhile... while we are playing the video games, reading the news, wondering if Brittney Spears is really having a child, trying to find out if Jennifer Anniston is really leaving a headline marriage, wondering if George Bush is at his ranch or in DC, watching the football game, basketball game, hockey game, or baseball game....while all of these things are happening, our lives are still going. Only changed slightly if you make bets on everything that you can bet on.
I think the one thing that I have learned this year is that we sometimes get so caught up in what is going to happen to the Desperate Housewives or to Seth on the OC, that we don't take the time to find out what has happened in the lives of those who we really care about. I guess it hits me pretty hard because I spend so much time on the road, away from my friends, family, and other people who are important to me.
How often do you make any of those things priorities over those you care about? Of course, we all have.
For Christmas, I want to make sure that the people I have encountered this year understand how much I appreciate them. Of course, all of my interactions have not been positive on the surface. Nonetheless, each interaction that I have had has helped to shape what I would consider to be a pretty wonderful year. I have had the opportunity to learn, grow, and even understand things that I have not understood in the past. I have grown more tolerant, understanding, patient, and responsible. With each day comes new expriences and opportunities.
Make sure you let someone know how important they are to you and how much you appreciate everything they have done. I am sure they will be happy to hear it.
Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays to everyone!
Monday, December 12, 2005
Friday, November 25, 2005
Wednesday, September 21, 2005
Sometimes You Just Have To Take A Break
I think I reached breaking point numero uno today. Being on the road has been long. I think it's almost been a month, and I feel like I've done more work than I have in the past year. Sometimes, work can get difficult. I think one of the most difficult obstacles I have faced is seperating the personal commitment with the commitment that I have made to my job. The more and more I think about it, I just laugh.
I think one of my biggest weaknesses is caring about others. I know a lot of people say, "OH, that is not a weakness. That is a good thing." And I agree that it can definitely be a good thing. However, it becomes bad when it begins to apply pressure to you. That tends to be my problem. Of course I realize that what I am doing is a job, but the deeper thought is not that it is a job, but that what I am doing can actually have an impact on someones life. Sure, go ahead and tell me that I am insane to think that a fraternity is that important. I guess my response to that is simply that I am living proof.
A lot of people ask me, why are you doing this job? When are you going to get a real job? To them, I respond, this job is something I have dreamed up. A job where I can help people, not worry about making money, and have a little bit of fun while I am at it. I didn't take this job to goof off. I took this job with the hope of helping men across the country have a positive fraternity experience.
I am not totally sure I would even be here today if it were not for the support and care of my very own fraternity brothers. There have been times when I have felt all alone, not even sure that my family was supporting me. In those times, I can honestly say that my fraternity brothers NEVER let me down. They have been there for some of the biggest moments of my life. I have had exciting moments with my fraternity brothers, as well as angry moments. Most importantly, they have been there during the difficult times as well.
Some believe that a fraternity is about the alcohol. "Oh, it is just a big drinking club that you guys join to try to prove that you are better than everyone else." To them, I say that they are partially correct. Do I believe that I am better than anyone else? No. I believe that we are of equal importance in the world. Some of us may possess talents that others lack, but in the end, I think it all equals out in some odd, mysterious way. Do I hold myself to higher standards than everyone else? You'd better believe I do. I do not believe that I am average, or that their is any room for being average in my life. I believe that average is accepting things as they are. Why do that? If you're not reaching higher, life just stays the same.
I guess to some, this will never make sense. In 2000, I pledged myself to an organization. When I did that, I made a commitment to myself to strive manfully for intellectual, moral, and spiritual excellence. I am not saying that I will ever make it there, but I will continue reaching.
I guess sometimes the commitments that you make can be both a blessing and a curse. I do, however, believe that in the end, I will be able to look back on my life and smile, because what I am doing makes me happy...even through all of the frustration and sometimes anger.
To the fulfillment of these beliefs, of these ideals, in the noble perfection of Phi Kappa Psi, I pledge my life and my sacred honor.
I think one of my biggest weaknesses is caring about others. I know a lot of people say, "OH, that is not a weakness. That is a good thing." And I agree that it can definitely be a good thing. However, it becomes bad when it begins to apply pressure to you. That tends to be my problem. Of course I realize that what I am doing is a job, but the deeper thought is not that it is a job, but that what I am doing can actually have an impact on someones life. Sure, go ahead and tell me that I am insane to think that a fraternity is that important. I guess my response to that is simply that I am living proof.
A lot of people ask me, why are you doing this job? When are you going to get a real job? To them, I respond, this job is something I have dreamed up. A job where I can help people, not worry about making money, and have a little bit of fun while I am at it. I didn't take this job to goof off. I took this job with the hope of helping men across the country have a positive fraternity experience.
I am not totally sure I would even be here today if it were not for the support and care of my very own fraternity brothers. There have been times when I have felt all alone, not even sure that my family was supporting me. In those times, I can honestly say that my fraternity brothers NEVER let me down. They have been there for some of the biggest moments of my life. I have had exciting moments with my fraternity brothers, as well as angry moments. Most importantly, they have been there during the difficult times as well.
Some believe that a fraternity is about the alcohol. "Oh, it is just a big drinking club that you guys join to try to prove that you are better than everyone else." To them, I say that they are partially correct. Do I believe that I am better than anyone else? No. I believe that we are of equal importance in the world. Some of us may possess talents that others lack, but in the end, I think it all equals out in some odd, mysterious way. Do I hold myself to higher standards than everyone else? You'd better believe I do. I do not believe that I am average, or that their is any room for being average in my life. I believe that average is accepting things as they are. Why do that? If you're not reaching higher, life just stays the same.
I guess to some, this will never make sense. In 2000, I pledged myself to an organization. When I did that, I made a commitment to myself to strive manfully for intellectual, moral, and spiritual excellence. I am not saying that I will ever make it there, but I will continue reaching.
I guess sometimes the commitments that you make can be both a blessing and a curse. I do, however, believe that in the end, I will be able to look back on my life and smile, because what I am doing makes me happy...even through all of the frustration and sometimes anger.
To the fulfillment of these beliefs, of these ideals, in the noble perfection of Phi Kappa Psi, I pledge my life and my sacred honor.
Monday, September 19, 2005
What's Your Problem?
What if we only had to deal with the problems that we wanted to deal with. "You have three problems. Pick one. The rest will go away". That would be nice. Better yet, what if you could just ignore your problems and they would all go away. It's something that we have all tried. "I'll just act like I don't have to turn in that paper tomorrow and the assignment will go away". Very few have been successful utilizing that procedure. What if we had to deal with all of our problems, but the answers were all right there in front of us. I guess that always presents its road blocks as well. If we had answers to everything, I guess we wouldn't have much of a problem on our hands.
I've grown from dealing with my problems. And believe it or not, with each day, a new challenge seems to find me. I think challenge is a better word to use. Some challenges not as difficult as others. Some don't require as much thought. Some last for what seems like forever. Other go away no sooner than they appear. Nonetheless, I have grown from each of them.
Sometimes, my initial thought is to just seclude myself from everyone. Hide. Be anti-social. But then when I really stop and think about it, that is only going to bring to me new problems. Problems that I really don't know how to deal with (Could you imagine me being anti-social).
I guess sometimes we just want things to change and for our problems to go away. We can always look at our life and think about how easy things would be without the problems that we all face. But what would we know without our problems? What would we have to figure out?
I guess I am kind of glad that I have problems. That does not mean that I enjoy them or that I want more than I already have. Just simply that I accept them into my life. I've dealt with many things in my short, but eventful life. Some of my problems I never thought I would live through, others I just wanted to end. I've feared being abandoned by my friends, family and anyone else who would come in contact with me. I've feared making the wrong decisions or digging myself into a hole. Somehow, I have survived.
I've grown from dealing with my problems. And believe it or not, with each day, a new challenge seems to find me. I think challenge is a better word to use. Some challenges not as difficult as others. Some don't require as much thought. Some last for what seems like forever. Other go away no sooner than they appear. Nonetheless, I have grown from each of them.
Sometimes, my initial thought is to just seclude myself from everyone. Hide. Be anti-social. But then when I really stop and think about it, that is only going to bring to me new problems. Problems that I really don't know how to deal with (Could you imagine me being anti-social).
I guess sometimes we just want things to change and for our problems to go away. We can always look at our life and think about how easy things would be without the problems that we all face. But what would we know without our problems? What would we have to figure out?
I guess I am kind of glad that I have problems. That does not mean that I enjoy them or that I want more than I already have. Just simply that I accept them into my life. I've dealt with many things in my short, but eventful life. Some of my problems I never thought I would live through, others I just wanted to end. I've feared being abandoned by my friends, family and anyone else who would come in contact with me. I've feared making the wrong decisions or digging myself into a hole. Somehow, I have survived.
Tuesday, September 06, 2005
Monday, August 08, 2005
Fall Schedule 2005
Iowa State University - Aug 17 to Aug 27
University of Nebraska - Aug 28 to Aug 31
Creighton University - Aug 31 to Sept 3
University of Iowa - Sept 5 to Sept 9
Beloit College - Sept 10 to Sept 13
N. Illinois University - Sept 14 to Sept 24
Northwestern University - Sept 25 to Sept 28
DePaul University - Sept 28 to Oct 1
U. Illinois- Chicago - Oct 2 to Oct 5
Valparaiso University - Oct 5 to Oct 8
University of Toledo - Oct 9 to Oct 12
Michigan State University - Oct 12 to Oct 15
University of Michigan - Oct 16 to Oct 19
University of Dayton - Oct 19 to Oct 22
Ohio Wesleyan University - Oct 23 to Oct 26
The Ohio State University - Oct 26 to Oct 29
Ashland University - Oct 30 to Nov 2
Allegheny College - Nov 2 to Nov 5
Lycoming College - Nov 6 to Nov 9
N. Illinois University - Nov 13 to Nov 16
Miami University - Nov 27 to Nov 30
University of Illinois - Nov 30 to Dec 3
Illinois State University - Dec 4 to Dec 7
Frustration
I am a few days away from going on the road again and all I feel is frustration. There is so much to do and so little time to do it all in. Sometimes I just want to scream at the top of my lungs, but I do a really bad job of screaming. Anyhow, last weeks travels were pretty cool. The gang and I ventured to Maryland to do some alumni work in Baltimore/DC. We got to meet some pretty cool people. The University of Maryland is a beautiful campus. We went from there to NYC where I have decided it would be very difficult for me to live. Just way too much going on ALL THE TIME. You could honestly go for weeks before you realize that you are consumed in the craziness that is New York City. I don't know. I am just not really sure its for me.
Other than that, I am getting ready to travel, so immediately following this post, I am going to put up my schedule. Not very excited about it right now because I have so much to get done still and not very much time to do it in. I guess we will see how it goes. I am excited about being in the midwest. I really need to start looking for jobs soon. So if you are reading this and know of some job opportunities that will be opening up next spring, let me know.
I guess that is it for now. Let the excitement begin....it's almost time.
Other than that, I am getting ready to travel, so immediately following this post, I am going to put up my schedule. Not very excited about it right now because I have so much to get done still and not very much time to do it in. I guess we will see how it goes. I am excited about being in the midwest. I really need to start looking for jobs soon. So if you are reading this and know of some job opportunities that will be opening up next spring, let me know.
I guess that is it for now. Let the excitement begin....it's almost time.
Monday, August 01, 2005
Think About It
Ever been in a situation where you want to say something...but can't...or you could, but you may not really want to... or maybe you do want to, but you know that it would be bad if you did...and you realize that your life and everyone elses will be much better if you don't, or would it? Sometimes we learn by speaking up, other times we learn by keeping our mouths shut. Where is the winner? Where is the loser? Is there a winner? Who will it be? Why? Why Not? Ever considered that?!
A Hawkeye Weekend
This past weekend was a lot of fun. I went to Iowa for a recruitment event which ended up being canceled. That did not make it bad. I was still very happy to be there as I had an opportunity to meet some cool people and hang out with others that I already knew. Saturday morning was a little different. I woke up at 6:30am to drive from Iowa City to Davenport for the BIX 7. It is a seven mile run/walk marathon that people do. I guess there were about 20,000 people involved in the race! WHOA! It was fun though. The people that won were really fast. I got to see Haase run too. He did pretty darn good. Anyhow, the rest of the evening was spent relaxing and hangin out with people...shaving heads...good times.
Tuesday, July 26, 2005
Recap on Vegas
It would be difficult to deny that Vegas was a wonderful time. Everytime I gather with members of my fraternity, I am somewhat recharged with energy and excitement to go out and do my job. In 1852, we were founded on the basic principle that help would be offered to those in need when they needed it. Spending the last year at the side of our undergraduates has been rewarding and educational. I can only hope that my experiences will continue to be this fulfilling. It was nice to meet some new people, which I have already mentioned. I think the thing I left out is the fact that it is so easy to miss that one person or two people while you are visiting and as a result, possibly never encounter them again in your entire life. I would like to be the first to say that it is an unfortunate experience for any of us that are traveling. My life is made of those around me and what I make of it. It's all good.
Friday, July 22, 2005
Time Doesn't Stop
It is already the end of July. It seems like we've been doing this summer thing for almost three days. It has been more like three months. I am currently trying to get ready for the upcoming school year. I have a lot of exciting places to travel this year. I will be visiting the following places this fall: University of Toledo - Toledo, Ohio; Case Western Reserve University - Cleveland, Ohio; Ashland University - Ashland, Ohio; Wittenberg University - Springfield, Ohio; University of Dayton - Dayton, Ohio; Miami University - Oxford, Ohio; Ohio Wesleyan University - Deleware, Ohio; The Ohio State University - Columbus, Ohio; Lycoming College - Williamsport, Pennsylvania; Michigan State University - East Lansing, Michigan; University of Michigan - Ann Arbor, Michigan; University of Minnesota Duluth - Duluth, Minnesota; University of Minnesota Twin Cities - Minneapolis, Minnesota; Minnesota State University - Mankato, Minnesota; Beloit College - Beloit, Wisconsin; University of Iowa - Iowa City, Iowa; Iowa State University - Ames, Iowa; Northwestern University - Chicago, Illinois; University of Illinois - Champaign, Illinois; Illinois State University - Normal, Illinois; Southern Illinois State University Edwardsville - Edwardsville, Illinois; DePaul University - Chicago, Illinois; University of Illinois-Chicago - Chicago, Illinois; Northern Illinois University - DeKalb, Illinois, University of Nebraska - Lincoln, Nebraska; Creighton University - Omaha, Nebraska. If you are or will be in the of any of these schools, feel free to let me know. It would be awesome to see you. For now, it's time to go. :-)
Wednesday, July 20, 2005
When Everything Seems Wrong
Going into my week in Vegas, I was not really sure what to expect. The summer has been exhausting and all I really wanted to do was rest. I guess I didn't really get to do that very much, but I exchanged my rest for something much greater. I had a wonderful time hanging out with the people that I did. I had the opportunity to meet really cool people that I have not encountered in the past while catching up with those who I have not encountered before. It was a great week for me to rebuild and get back on track. Sometimes, when everything seems wrong; a person or people walk into your life and help lift you up. This past week definitely did for me.
Tuesday, July 05, 2005
Be Proud to be An AMERICAN
So it's the Forth of July, the birth date of our country. Pretty exciting for the most part. We have so much to be thankful for. Every troop over seas is protecting us, and they should be comended for their efforts regardless of your stance on the war. I have come to realize a few things recently, and while I see them from a very optimistic point of view, it is pretty interesting to think about. In my book, George W. Bush is not very bright. Do I support most of his decisions? No. But if you really stop and look at it, how many countries have an idiot leading them but never ever have a say in who that idiot is. It is a given that we will have a new President in 2009. That is awesome. Laws. Some of them are way crazy. We can change them. You can't just go out and change a law, but we have the ability through our Government to seek that process. Want the drinking age to be 18? The opportunity is there. Will it pass. Who knows. Maybe. Maybe not. Most people live their lives based on the decisions of someone else. Anyone upset with anything that our Government is doing right now? Of course....so say it, because we are free to. As long as your comments are free of threats, we are allowed to express ourselves. How many people around the world lose their lives because they expressed themselves?! Sad...yes. I have never been so down on my country as I am now. Private companies can now find ways to take our houses away, the Patriot Act will make every private part of your life an open book, small stores will continue to close, Wal-Mart will continue to open, Seperation of Church and state applies when in favor of the church, Air Pollution will increase, Gas prices will too, soldiers will die, so will inocent children. Millions of dollars will be spent on terrible movies, people in 3rd world nations seek food, people will lose jobs, children in other countries will work, merchandise will be made cheaper and cost more, Amount of work will increase faster than your pay. Some things stink. It's still our country. We can give up and run away... or continue to live. I say "LIVE". Don't agree with me? No problem. I understand. That's why this is my opinion. I would be happy to hear yours.
Thursday, June 23, 2005
Hand Outs
It's pretty awesome how quickly your battery can be recharged and you can be overtaken with a positive attitude once again. As I mentioned earlier, I spent the past week and a half in Bowling Green, Ohio at Buckeye Boys State, and I had an absolute blast. There are not very many opportunities that you have in life to get together and help so many wonderful students. Many of the guys in attendence were at the top of their class, involved in student organizations, playing sports, and just all around good people. I was really fortunate with the group of guys that I got.
It is really funny when you think about it. The reason that we are supposed to be there is to help the guys learn about the Government and life. The awesome thing is that I always end up leaving with new born knowledge as well. Sometimes just when I think I have forgotten what it is like to be happy with the way life is, I have someone that arrives on my doorstep to remind me.
I can definitely say that I had that experience again. I just sit down and look back at what was going on in my life when I was 17 years old and getting ready to go into my senior year of high school. I was involved in every student organization that existed, I played football, I was in show choir, I did musical theater stuff, and I was trying to be a good student. I would hang out with my friends and watch ESPN, and have a great time. It wasn't until I went to Boys State that I realized how fortunate I really was. I met people who went to schools that had old text books...we complained when ours had pencil marks in them. I met others who had to work to help out their family... we worked so we could get the $60 blue jeans that we wanted. When I say worked, I mean retail, office filing, secretary. A farm? A Factory? Not so much. I remember one of my friends being upset because his parents were giving him the '97 Pontiac and he didn't want that. Then you meet someone whose family only has one car.
Pretty insane when you really stop and think about it. Some of us live in a bubble. I know I did for a lot of my life. I was the poor one where I lived, and that wasn't so bad. I had food onthe table, a roof over my head, and probably much more than I really deserved. So my hat goes off to everyone out there that worked harder than I did, because I was pretty lucky. I don't feel bad for anyone that had to do more work or put in more time because I know it has made each of them a better person... but it makes it pretty difficult to complain about anything when you have so much given to you.
It is really funny when you think about it. The reason that we are supposed to be there is to help the guys learn about the Government and life. The awesome thing is that I always end up leaving with new born knowledge as well. Sometimes just when I think I have forgotten what it is like to be happy with the way life is, I have someone that arrives on my doorstep to remind me.
I can definitely say that I had that experience again. I just sit down and look back at what was going on in my life when I was 17 years old and getting ready to go into my senior year of high school. I was involved in every student organization that existed, I played football, I was in show choir, I did musical theater stuff, and I was trying to be a good student. I would hang out with my friends and watch ESPN, and have a great time. It wasn't until I went to Boys State that I realized how fortunate I really was. I met people who went to schools that had old text books...we complained when ours had pencil marks in them. I met others who had to work to help out their family... we worked so we could get the $60 blue jeans that we wanted. When I say worked, I mean retail, office filing, secretary. A farm? A Factory? Not so much. I remember one of my friends being upset because his parents were giving him the '97 Pontiac and he didn't want that. Then you meet someone whose family only has one car.
Pretty insane when you really stop and think about it. Some of us live in a bubble. I know I did for a lot of my life. I was the poor one where I lived, and that wasn't so bad. I had food onthe table, a roof over my head, and probably much more than I really deserved. So my hat goes off to everyone out there that worked harder than I did, because I was pretty lucky. I don't feel bad for anyone that had to do more work or put in more time because I know it has made each of them a better person... but it makes it pretty difficult to complain about anything when you have so much given to you.
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
I Know, You Don't Understand
One of the most difficult things about returning home from something such as Boys State is that not very many people can understand or relate with the experience. It's not easy. A typical conversation can go something like this. Someone: "So, what did you do this week?" Me: "Oh, I actually went to staff the American Legion Buckeye Boys State conference at Bowling Green." Someone: "Oh wow, that must have been amazing. How was it?" Me: It was a really good time. I especially enjoyed..." Someone: "Oh, I need to go now."
You get used to it after awhile. Therefore, I am going to go ahead and spare anyone the details of my experience.... for now. I just wanted to post what I have done...and it was awesome.
You get used to it after awhile. Therefore, I am going to go ahead and spare anyone the details of my experience.... for now. I just wanted to post what I have done...and it was awesome.
Monday, May 23, 2005
Just Asking For a Chance
Think of a group of people... a group that you don't understand at all. In your eyes, everything they do is rediculous. Why would they wear that? Why would they listen to that type of music? Why would they act that way? Why do they think the way they do? What do they do? I find it very interesting... I have heard each of these questions come from the mouths of another..but it usually goes like this. "Why in the hell does he do that? He is rediculous." Here is something to think about. Why do we ask the question, but never seek a true answer. When is the last time that you found the actions, thoughts, or words of another to be wrong or they just didn't seem to make much sense? Do you ask for an explanation, or do you just come up with your own.
I believe that there is a certain level of accomplishment in those who are willing to ask questions, and try to understand. I've had the opportunity to meet many people, and some of those opportunities are not always enjoyable. These are a few of the explanations or reasonings I get from people who do not agree with something.... 1. I am right, you are wrong - We all have different beliefs. I get frustrated when I hear people talk about how terrible it is that someone is of this religion or that religion or that they believe this or that. Wow. If you are a mormon, or catholic, or christian, or muslim...that is cool with me. Who I am and what I believe in are MY BELIEFS. I am happy to discuss them with you if you would like, but I will not force them upon you. 2. That is way not cool: A lot of people think that it has to be "cool" to be done. Get over it. If impressing others is your main concern, you are defintely not cool. 3. THAT'S ALL YOU HEAR ABOUT - Many people go off of the things they hear about. "Well, you read about it in the newspaper all the time". Sure, you read about lots of things in the newspaper all the time. Have you ever taken the time to learn some things on your own. I could go on forever. I guess I can only hope that someday, people will realize that we are all different, and that doesn't have to be such a bad thing. Most people are out there, everyday, living their lives the best they can, trying to make sure that they are happy. The next time you don't get it, ask someone. Don't come to a conclusion without being informed. You're not hurting anyone more than you are hurting yourself. Most people are just asking for a chance, and that's all.
I believe that there is a certain level of accomplishment in those who are willing to ask questions, and try to understand. I've had the opportunity to meet many people, and some of those opportunities are not always enjoyable. These are a few of the explanations or reasonings I get from people who do not agree with something.... 1. I am right, you are wrong - We all have different beliefs. I get frustrated when I hear people talk about how terrible it is that someone is of this religion or that religion or that they believe this or that. Wow. If you are a mormon, or catholic, or christian, or muslim...that is cool with me. Who I am and what I believe in are MY BELIEFS. I am happy to discuss them with you if you would like, but I will not force them upon you. 2. That is way not cool: A lot of people think that it has to be "cool" to be done. Get over it. If impressing others is your main concern, you are defintely not cool. 3. THAT'S ALL YOU HEAR ABOUT - Many people go off of the things they hear about. "Well, you read about it in the newspaper all the time". Sure, you read about lots of things in the newspaper all the time. Have you ever taken the time to learn some things on your own. I could go on forever. I guess I can only hope that someday, people will realize that we are all different, and that doesn't have to be such a bad thing. Most people are out there, everyday, living their lives the best they can, trying to make sure that they are happy. The next time you don't get it, ask someone. Don't come to a conclusion without being informed. You're not hurting anyone more than you are hurting yourself. Most people are just asking for a chance, and that's all.
Sunday, May 15, 2005
Sunday, May 08, 2005
What You Wish For
As each new person walks into my life, I always wonder what role that person will play. Will they be around for 3 days and never again, will they be there now and then for the rest of my life, or will the become important. As I travel and meet many people, it is a question I often ask myself. I meet people and some I hope that I will have an opportunity to someday get to know better...while others, I don't care much to see again. Others are fine, but nothing special. It's an interesting thought. Think about the first time you met your best friend, your girlfriend/boyfriend, worst enemy. Did you know then that things would be the way they are now? Not many people do.
Friday, May 06, 2005
The People In My Life
Two years ago, I was preparing to graduate from college. At that point I had no idea what I was going to do next. I defintely did not think I would be doing what I am doing now. Regardless, I am here and very happy to be here. One thing has crossed my mind since my return.
I have some of the best friends that any person could ask for, but I still only have 24 hours a day...some of which I should probably consider utilizing for sleep. My point is this: doing what I do, I 've come to realize how important the things you say and the things you do really are... while a telephone call may not last an hour, it still allows you to say hello. While lunch at McDonald's may not be spending the week together, it is taking time to hang out. I miss my friends and sometimes I worry that they do not know that. Without my friends, I would not be the person I am. THe people in my life keep me going. I may not say it regularly, but I do recognize it...and appreciate everyday that my friends are there for me.
I have some of the best friends that any person could ask for, but I still only have 24 hours a day...some of which I should probably consider utilizing for sleep. My point is this: doing what I do, I 've come to realize how important the things you say and the things you do really are... while a telephone call may not last an hour, it still allows you to say hello. While lunch at McDonald's may not be spending the week together, it is taking time to hang out. I miss my friends and sometimes I worry that they do not know that. Without my friends, I would not be the person I am. THe people in my life keep me going. I may not say it regularly, but I do recognize it...and appreciate everyday that my friends are there for me.
Thursday, April 28, 2005
Solitude
Little do men perceive what solitude is, and how far it extendeth. For a crowd is not company, and faces are but a gallery of pictures, and talk but a tinkling cymbal, where there is no love. - Francis Bacon
Odd, the things that make you think. Many say that it would be imposible for someone doing my job to get lonely. It is pretty obvious, isn't it? I spend every day surrounded with undergraduates and others in the field of higher education. Many of them are great people... many of them kind, considerate, and someone concerned with my well being. At least I would like to think so.
Have you ever stood in the middle of a crowd at a concert, or even in the middle of a crowd at a high school football game, or a theater show? Next to you, you are almost sure to find someone else. Sure, they may be there, but why? Are they there because they care about you? Of course not. A crowd is not company. As a matter of fact, a crowd is just that.
Solitude. There is nothing happy about that word. It means being alone. I've come to realize that solitude and being alone do not necessarily need to represent something bad. As I stand in the midst of the crowd, it becomes more clear to me who does care. I begin to realize what is truly important in my life. Sometimes, my realizations frighten me.
It can be lonely out there, even when several smiling faces surround you. However, my lonliness has helped me realize the difference between being alone and having someone there for you. Lonliness can be inspired by us, but can only exist if there is no one else there to help you fight it. Sometimes, we overlook the truth and we don't really understand what it means to be alone. While the crowd does not usually yield friends, I know I am not alone. I've met people who are.
Odd, the things that make you think. Many say that it would be imposible for someone doing my job to get lonely. It is pretty obvious, isn't it? I spend every day surrounded with undergraduates and others in the field of higher education. Many of them are great people... many of them kind, considerate, and someone concerned with my well being. At least I would like to think so.
Have you ever stood in the middle of a crowd at a concert, or even in the middle of a crowd at a high school football game, or a theater show? Next to you, you are almost sure to find someone else. Sure, they may be there, but why? Are they there because they care about you? Of course not. A crowd is not company. As a matter of fact, a crowd is just that.
Solitude. There is nothing happy about that word. It means being alone. I've come to realize that solitude and being alone do not necessarily need to represent something bad. As I stand in the midst of the crowd, it becomes more clear to me who does care. I begin to realize what is truly important in my life. Sometimes, my realizations frighten me.
It can be lonely out there, even when several smiling faces surround you. However, my lonliness has helped me realize the difference between being alone and having someone there for you. Lonliness can be inspired by us, but can only exist if there is no one else there to help you fight it. Sometimes, we overlook the truth and we don't really understand what it means to be alone. While the crowd does not usually yield friends, I know I am not alone. I've met people who are.
Sunday, April 17, 2005
Drawing the Line
Nearly eight months have gone by, I have traveled through 23 states, visited 30 college campuses, and met hundreds of people. Strange to think of how little time has gone by and how much life has changed in the process. When I look back, I don't really know what I was expecting to get out of this experience. I figured it would be an opportunity to contribute to Phi Psi while traveling the country. I guess I never really understood how much I would be able to take from my travels.
Every time I get into my car and drive down a highway to some new place, I ask myself, "who am I going to meet next? What problems are they facing? Did I ever have any of those problems? Can I help? If not, who should they turn to?"
When we accept a responsibility in life, we often find ourselves facing a challenge. The challenge is understanding your responsibility. While I realize that there really is no clause in my contract that says I need to make sure that I spend a Saturday night hanging out with some of the guys or that I should listen to a guy when he needs someone to lend him an ear. I guess the one thing that can always get in the way is remembering that I took this job because I wanted to give back to Phi Psi. Sure, I am off the clock most of the time, but in some small way, understanding the seperation is confusing. I am happy to stand by my brothers as a brother, not as some guy that works for "NATIONALS". Sometimes you just have to know where to draw the line.
Every time I get into my car and drive down a highway to some new place, I ask myself, "who am I going to meet next? What problems are they facing? Did I ever have any of those problems? Can I help? If not, who should they turn to?"
When we accept a responsibility in life, we often find ourselves facing a challenge. The challenge is understanding your responsibility. While I realize that there really is no clause in my contract that says I need to make sure that I spend a Saturday night hanging out with some of the guys or that I should listen to a guy when he needs someone to lend him an ear. I guess the one thing that can always get in the way is remembering that I took this job because I wanted to give back to Phi Psi. Sure, I am off the clock most of the time, but in some small way, understanding the seperation is confusing. I am happy to stand by my brothers as a brother, not as some guy that works for "NATIONALS". Sometimes you just have to know where to draw the line.
Tuesday, April 12, 2005
"To these beliefs I pledge my life..."
"The Alpha Tau Omega fraternity is being closed because of damage to the chapter house and risk-management issues, university (of Michigan) and fraternity officials said Monday."
- The Detroit Free Press (April 12, 2005)
"Sigma Alpha Epsilon Fraternity faces charges after allegedly holding an unregistered party last month. University Police reports state the party had more than 300 people in attendance. However, partygoers are contesting those and other allegations.
- Independent Florida Alligator (April 12, 2005)
" The Chico State senior is accused of supplying vodka to 10 underage pledges at the Sigma Chi fraternity house Jan. 20."
-Chico Enterprise Record (April 12, 2005)
"The Tufts Greek world is currently in a tailspin after the revelation that the Delta Tau Delta (DTD) fraternity, long a staple of fraternity life at Tufts, will be closing for a year following numerous violations uncovered after a pledge was taken to the hospital during a fraternity event."
- The Tufts Daily (April 12, 2005)
"Police in Arkadelphia are trying to figure out what sparked a huge brawl between two fraternities at Henderson State University. Police say between 50 and 75 people were involved. "
- KATV 7, Arkadelphia (April 11, 2005)
"It happened at Delta Tau Delta fraternity house overnight, where a party turned into a fight. People were asked to leave and gunshots soon followed."
-WISH TV 8, Indianapolis, (April 8, 2005)
Everyday, I read stuff like this and I stop and ask myself, "what are we doing?" What are we doing to ourselves? This is the news that people read, watch, and hear everyday. These are the things people use to form an opinion of the Greek World. Sure, we are doing great things too, but we are supposed to. We have all agreed to that. Sure, boys will be boys, I know. We accept that because we want to. Do we accept terrorists will be terrorists, Or George W. will be George W., or even that administrators will be administrators. Many believe that all three are hurting the lives of others. Where does the Boys will be Boys theory differ? Sure, our decisions aren't made to hurt someone, but how often does it happen? We pledge our lives to being ABOVE AVERAGE people, to respect, honor, courage, and love. Then we look for an excuse whenever we can't hold up our end of the agreement, but we become upset when others can't hold up theirs.
We live so much of our lives applying pressure to ourselves because we choose to....not because we have to. and the end results are frightening. Most of us would give our lives to accomplish some superficial, dumb, worthless task like getting a piece of ass, out-drinking someone else, or even to make money. How many people give their lives trying to be happy? AN HONEST SEARCH FOR HAPPINESS? But I think even as much as you and I look for that, we have to stop and ask ourselves how much we are letting the outside get in. How much control are we taking of our lives and how much control we are giving outside forces.
Today has been an enlightening day for me. How about you?
- The Detroit Free Press (April 12, 2005)
"Sigma Alpha Epsilon Fraternity faces charges after allegedly holding an unregistered party last month. University Police reports state the party had more than 300 people in attendance. However, partygoers are contesting those and other allegations.
- Independent Florida Alligator (April 12, 2005)
" The Chico State senior is accused of supplying vodka to 10 underage pledges at the Sigma Chi fraternity house Jan. 20."
-Chico Enterprise Record (April 12, 2005)
"The Tufts Greek world is currently in a tailspin after the revelation that the Delta Tau Delta (DTD) fraternity, long a staple of fraternity life at Tufts, will be closing for a year following numerous violations uncovered after a pledge was taken to the hospital during a fraternity event."
- The Tufts Daily (April 12, 2005)
"Police in Arkadelphia are trying to figure out what sparked a huge brawl between two fraternities at Henderson State University. Police say between 50 and 75 people were involved. "
- KATV 7, Arkadelphia (April 11, 2005)
"It happened at Delta Tau Delta fraternity house overnight, where a party turned into a fight. People were asked to leave and gunshots soon followed."
-WISH TV 8, Indianapolis, (April 8, 2005)
Everyday, I read stuff like this and I stop and ask myself, "what are we doing?" What are we doing to ourselves? This is the news that people read, watch, and hear everyday. These are the things people use to form an opinion of the Greek World. Sure, we are doing great things too, but we are supposed to. We have all agreed to that. Sure, boys will be boys, I know. We accept that because we want to. Do we accept terrorists will be terrorists, Or George W. will be George W., or even that administrators will be administrators. Many believe that all three are hurting the lives of others. Where does the Boys will be Boys theory differ? Sure, our decisions aren't made to hurt someone, but how often does it happen? We pledge our lives to being ABOVE AVERAGE people, to respect, honor, courage, and love. Then we look for an excuse whenever we can't hold up our end of the agreement, but we become upset when others can't hold up theirs.
We live so much of our lives applying pressure to ourselves because we choose to....not because we have to. and the end results are frightening. Most of us would give our lives to accomplish some superficial, dumb, worthless task like getting a piece of ass, out-drinking someone else, or even to make money. How many people give their lives trying to be happy? AN HONEST SEARCH FOR HAPPINESS? But I think even as much as you and I look for that, we have to stop and ask ourselves how much we are letting the outside get in. How much control are we taking of our lives and how much control we are giving outside forces.
Today has been an enlightening day for me. How about you?
Monday, April 11, 2005
Wednesday, March 30, 2005
Sunday, March 27, 2005
Did Someone Call?
I was in Cabo for a week and realized something amazing. Life was great before there were cell phones. Sure, I can reach you anywhere you go now because you have one, but why should it matter. When I was in Cabo, I was unreachable while I was at the beach or at dinner, or at a bar. Here, you can reach me while I am in the restroom if I have my phone with me. We use our cell phones to make up for our lack of organization, or to try to prove to someone that the reason that we are calling them is far more important than what they are doing at that moment. You are in a meeting. Your cell phone vibrates. You look down. It's your best friend. He knew you had this meeting for the next 3 hours. He calls anyhow. It appears as though he can't figure out what type of beer you should be drinking tonight. He calls to ask. Are we that important? Is the telephone call really more important than what you are doing. Probably not.
Friday, March 18, 2005
Tuesday, March 01, 2005
Happy Birthday to Me
So yesterday, I celebrated another year...yes another year being added to my life. Somehow, I've managed to avoid tragedy. Ok, I guess I've worked pretty hard to avoid it. Anyhow, it is wierd spending the large portion of your birthday in a car driving. I enjoyed it. It gave me an opportunity to listen to the three new CD's I got myself to celebrate the wondrous occasion.
Kind of interesting. I was listening to a song titled "Fred Jones Pt. 2" by Ben Folds. Besides the fact the I love the sound of the song, thinking about the lyrics is very interesting:
Fred sits alone at his desk in the dark
There's an awkward young shadow that waits in the hall
He has cleared all his things
and he's put them in boxes
Things that remind him that life has been good
Twentyfive years he's worked at the paper
Man's here to take him downstairs
And I'm sorry Mr. Jones, it's time
There was no party and there were no songs
'cause today's just a day like the day that he started
No one is left here who knows his first name
and life barrels off like a runaway train
where the passengers change
they don't change anything
you get off, someone else can get on
And I'm sorry Mr. Jones, it's time.
Streetlight, it shines through the shades
casting lines on the floor and lines on his face
he reflects on the day
Fred gets his paints out and goes to the basement
projecting some slides onto the plain white canvas
and traces it, fills in the spaces
He turns off the slide and it doesn't look right
And all of these bastards have taken his place
He's forgotten but not yet gone
And I'm sorry Mr. Jones
And I'm sorry Mr. Jones
And I'm sorry Mr. Jones,
It's time
I wake up every morning and do my job. I look forward to waking up to work another day. How many people don't feel that way? I believe that what I have done in my job to this point has made an impact on someones life in some way, shape or form. Does everyone feel that way? If we are not making the best of our job, why do we do them. Obviously, financial stability is very important in our country, but can't you find some good in your job? If it's the only job you can get, shouldn't you make a commitment to yourself to try to make the best of that job... to try to have a positive impact in someway? I can't imagine being that guy that does a job for my entire life and walks away from it asking myself what I've done. I try to live everyday with the attitude that I am here to make things happen. If I am cleaning floors someday, I can only hope that the shine of the floor makes someone smile. If I am the President of a company, I can only hope that my company is making the lives of many people better in some way. We can work to make a company better or an organization better, but if in that process, we are not improving something for "people", I don't think we've really done our job. So the next time you wake up for work, ask yourself why you go to work everyday? Are you happy going to work? Are you making someone's life a little bit better... Or are you just going because that's what you're supposed to do? When you walk away from your job, will you be sad to go? I think Fred Jones enjoyed his job and I think he made an impact on someones life....if not hundreds or thousands.
Kind of interesting. I was listening to a song titled "Fred Jones Pt. 2" by Ben Folds. Besides the fact the I love the sound of the song, thinking about the lyrics is very interesting:
Fred sits alone at his desk in the dark
There's an awkward young shadow that waits in the hall
He has cleared all his things
and he's put them in boxes
Things that remind him that life has been good
Twentyfive years he's worked at the paper
Man's here to take him downstairs
And I'm sorry Mr. Jones, it's time
There was no party and there were no songs
'cause today's just a day like the day that he started
No one is left here who knows his first name
and life barrels off like a runaway train
where the passengers change
they don't change anything
you get off, someone else can get on
And I'm sorry Mr. Jones, it's time.
Streetlight, it shines through the shades
casting lines on the floor and lines on his face
he reflects on the day
Fred gets his paints out and goes to the basement
projecting some slides onto the plain white canvas
and traces it, fills in the spaces
He turns off the slide and it doesn't look right
And all of these bastards have taken his place
He's forgotten but not yet gone
And I'm sorry Mr. Jones
And I'm sorry Mr. Jones
And I'm sorry Mr. Jones,
It's time
I wake up every morning and do my job. I look forward to waking up to work another day. How many people don't feel that way? I believe that what I have done in my job to this point has made an impact on someones life in some way, shape or form. Does everyone feel that way? If we are not making the best of our job, why do we do them. Obviously, financial stability is very important in our country, but can't you find some good in your job? If it's the only job you can get, shouldn't you make a commitment to yourself to try to make the best of that job... to try to have a positive impact in someway? I can't imagine being that guy that does a job for my entire life and walks away from it asking myself what I've done. I try to live everyday with the attitude that I am here to make things happen. If I am cleaning floors someday, I can only hope that the shine of the floor makes someone smile. If I am the President of a company, I can only hope that my company is making the lives of many people better in some way. We can work to make a company better or an organization better, but if in that process, we are not improving something for "people", I don't think we've really done our job. So the next time you wake up for work, ask yourself why you go to work everyday? Are you happy going to work? Are you making someone's life a little bit better... Or are you just going because that's what you're supposed to do? When you walk away from your job, will you be sad to go? I think Fred Jones enjoyed his job and I think he made an impact on someones life....if not hundreds or thousands.
Monday, February 28, 2005
Friday, February 25, 2005
He Ain't Heavy
The road is long with many a winding turn
That leads us to who knows where
Who knows where, who know where
But I'm strong, strong enough to carry him
He ain't heavy, he's my brother
So on we go, his welfare is of my concern
No burden is he to bear, we'll get there
For I know, he would not encumber me
He ain't heavy, he's my brother
If I'm laden at all, I'm laden with sadness
That everyone's heart isn't filled with gladness
Of love for one another
It's a long, long road from which there is no return
While we're on our way to there, why not share
And the load doesn't weigh me down at all
He ain't heavy, he's my brother
He's my brother
He ain't heavy
He's my brother
I guess I thought I'd posted these lyrics before. I listen to this song often. Listening to the song makes me smile because I see it as somewhat of a representation of why I do what I do. Besides the large paycheck I receive every two weeks, nothing is more rewarding than having the opportunity to work with my brothers everyday. There is defintely no burden in what I am doing.
That leads us to who knows where
Who knows where, who know where
But I'm strong, strong enough to carry him
He ain't heavy, he's my brother
So on we go, his welfare is of my concern
No burden is he to bear, we'll get there
For I know, he would not encumber me
He ain't heavy, he's my brother
If I'm laden at all, I'm laden with sadness
That everyone's heart isn't filled with gladness
Of love for one another
It's a long, long road from which there is no return
While we're on our way to there, why not share
And the load doesn't weigh me down at all
He ain't heavy, he's my brother
He's my brother
He ain't heavy
He's my brother
I guess I thought I'd posted these lyrics before. I listen to this song often. Listening to the song makes me smile because I see it as somewhat of a representation of why I do what I do. Besides the large paycheck I receive every two weeks, nothing is more rewarding than having the opportunity to work with my brothers everyday. There is defintely no burden in what I am doing.
Tuesday, February 22, 2005
Monday, February 21, 2005
Friday, February 18, 2005
Off the Left Coast
Sunday will be here soon. On Sunday, I will jump into my little Civic and depart Portland, Oregon and head across the country to Ames, Iowa. Goodbye to the Left Coast. Goodbye to the weather that has allowed me to break out my shorts and t-shirts. Goodbye to the sunshine that has allowed me to get this killer tan. Goodbye to the people who sometimes try to act like the midwest doesn't exist. It's time to say hello to the snow once again. It's also time to say hello to the cold that is waiting for me as soon as I hit the wonderful midwest air. The left coast has been fun, but I can really say I love home.
Tuesday, February 15, 2005
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